Overwhelmed. Overwhelmed. Overwhelmed. I just wanted to enjoy my success, not work a lifetime trying to achieve it. Things had gotten too complicated. I had a team working with me, guiding me through processes that I did not understand. I was researching effective blogging, writing query letters and press releases. The more I paid attention the more I realized that I was writing everything BUT what I wanted to write…my books!
Anyone who I got my books in front of would tell me that they loved them. Children were entertained and adults were inspired. Wonderful. My books were great, but they were not getting the attention that they deserved. The effort that it took to get them in front of the right audiences was immense. I had to be dedicated and focused. I had to have patience with the process. Giving up and working a 9-5 would have been an easy out. It’s hard to build a successful brand out of your own dreams. Then I snapped out of it.
It wasn’t a walk in the park slaving behind corporate walls, building a fortune for CEOs and getting paid fractions for it. Why should I wake up earlier than I wanted to and do what I hated for someone else’s gain when I could do that for myself? I had to succeed in building my brand. There was no other option.
So how could I get over the stress and anxiety that I was experiencing under the demands of my goals? First I needed to determine if I was doing what I really wanted to be doing. Was I truly an author at heart or was this a phase that I was wasting my time in? The reality was that I had always and would always be a writer. Now the challenge became how to cope with the difficulties that life as a writer presented.
I can remember getting a laundry list of things to do from my media consultant and closing my eyes, taking deep breaths. I couldn’t take one more thing on my plate but that was the wrong attitude. She was only trying to help me get where I wanted to be. I loved writing. The answer was in pulling out the aspects of what I loved about my work and allowing that to overshadow the ugly pieces, writing query letters and press releases. Writing is a way for me to escape into my creative mind just like with any other art form. I love a lot of things: travel, food, sleep. However, when asked what I would do for a living even if I was not paid for it, writing would be it. What would that thing be for you?
If you are not doing something that creates a fire in your soul, your labor will be harsh on your spirit and empty. You will not experience true enrichment and working just to get by is no life. YOLO right? Do what you love! Rarely are the things we want the most easily obtained. There will be tears, doubts, obstacles and breaking points. This is life. The important thing is to make sure that whatever you choose to do is worth it.